I just started a Mandarin Blog

Before I get to the Mandarin:

I’ll get to the mandarin in a second, first I wanna talk about art. I realized that when doing art and I guess music as well, I am way more motivated when working towards a goal that I will benefit from, rather than just practice. I find I learn pretty fast already and that I can learn things as I go. Practicing just to be practicing…to possible “master” something eventually, doesn’t appeal to me as much and I think that holds me back from any practice at all. So I realized I should probably focus on acquiring skills through purposeful use of them.

The Mandarin(not the restaurant…unless you are asking me out. In either case the following bracket is to close this aside, not to create a sad face with the colon that follows it):

Now for the mandarin bit, if you haven’t guessed already. I decided I should try to find a way to do the same for mandarin, and I realized one of the best ways would be to create a journal. Btw, I can’t help but notice my art ideas(a comic at least) and my Mandarin ideas (blog) are both very social in nature and I am motivated by this I THINK, but I wasn’t a few weeks ago…like back when I wasn’t on nofap. Just throwing that out there as it’s (common)knowledge that testosterone is a pro-social hormone.

Anyways, so as soon as I started making that first post I realized, wow there is a lot of review going on here. First I have to copy and paste from google translate, double checking the characters seem to say what I want to say. Also I can look at the pinyin for the words. Then I have to copy and paste the keywords again for tags. Then I have to search for keywords in the categories, or in this case add new ones as I had no categories as it was my first post.

I thinkĀ  should do more of this, just immersing myself in Chinese, using it in my life. Using it to express myself.

Aesthetic Appreciation and Sex Drive

First I’m gonna through some links at ya…:

This is where some guys describe how they are more sensitive to music after ejaculation: http://www.quora.com/Why-do-I-become-very-sensitive-to-music-right-after-I-ejaculate

This is an article about how artists have more sexual partners and that the number of partners is positively correlated to how seriously they pursue their artistic direction:http://www.independent.co.uk/life-style/health-and-families/health-news/does-creativity-depend-on-raging-hormones-520787.html

Here is another about musical appreciation after ejaculation: https://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20140327134618AAFBkwt

Now, what I want to discuss may not be so clear from these links because it is related to something I’ve realized while doing this NoFap thing. It is that when I am masturbating normally, I am more musical, or so it seems. I started creating music again with a vengeance after I started masturbating again after a 2 year celibacy/nofap period. During the no fap period I don’t recall creating any music. As well, now that I have started another round of nofap I find myself becoming less interested in making music…but that could just be coincidental and it’s probably too soon to say.

However, what I think could be said, is that while on nofap I become more fashion conscious. Beyond that I feel I become more aware of visual aesthetics in general, at lease when it comes to women, but I think just generally.

Let me throw this philosophical link at ya, which talks about nietzshe describes a subconscious will made up of sex drive and artistic desire which he believes has the power to transform a person, society, world,etc: http://artintelligence.net/review/?p=824

I wonder about this. How important aesthetics are. I know I value beauty highly. The thing is, there seems to be this attitude among lot’s of people that beauty is just a luxury. However, I believe it is far more than that. Not just because of passion, or psychosomatic effects, but for abstract, algorithmic secrets that beauty holds which even if we only sense in what seems to be a primitive appreciation, is actually a path we can follow to new ways of being.

Now for some reflection:

For a long time I have thought, if I’m going to dress really cool, like a video game character level of cool, then shouldn’t I also be doing video game level stuff, like action packed saving the world type stuff? Otherwise it’s like all bark and no bite. Flashy but ineffective. Etc.

Now though what I realize is that to create beauty, you have to have power already, which everyone does, it’s personal power we all have. We have power, to express our beauty. So Beauty implies power. However, power does not imply beauty, at least in the terms people think of power to be, such as nuclear arms, money, etc. Although if we later realize that beauty is the true source of happiness, even in some abstract way, then we can maybe say the nuclear arms and money are actually not power at all if they are used by someone who doesn’t want to create and express beauty, because they are dis-empowered in not wanting to do so.

Anyways, what I think now, is that we need to be our own type of hero, not the type people make action films about, unless that need actually arises in your life. The type of hero I feel is needed in mine is the type that is authentic in their appreciation of beauty, and works to build that through their lifestyle, and grow in powers of expressing that into their world to the benefit of them and everyone else who can appreciate it.

The Fertile Male Part 1: Correlation between sperm production and attractiveness

There is a big diff between the nofap protocol and just iunno, being high l-tyrosine

For one, nofap is almost sleep/diet and workout independent.
It’s like it taps into this innate drive. Also and a very important point is the level of attractiveness you have to others. Nofap increases this while high tyrosine maybe does nothing.

It seems nofap is about relief.

Relief from the incessant urge, via ignoring it
relief from the 2am surfing
relief from checking out people who are not interested

however, it is relief and a positive thing, only for as long
as the urge exists. Once it doesn’t, the lack of urge becomes
the thing we want relief from.

Hence the 6-7 day cycle which as well brings relief from the
urge on the last day as well as relief from the impending loss
of drive.

Ah I just thought of something. Here is where I start to make my point.

I was wondering, why such a big deal with the
getting horny and more attractive but only until
7 days and then it going away? why would biology do
that?

Well I thought, what other areas of human physiology work
this way? One is cardiovascular activity, or just general
moderate-intense exercise. After 45 min it becomes counter
productive.

So the same could be for somethngn like celibacy.
Why?
Well because semen would be produced up to a point (7 days)
making pregnancy more likely (attractiveness and horny)
but after that time it would become less likely after
a wet dream or semen died or full balls, etc.

It seems like the optimal reproductive strategy would be that
fertile males have sex with fertile females.
Monogomy which could easily be just one of the many symtoms of
“lockian or rousseuan society” could be to the detriment of
optimal reproduction.

Now I’m going to go off on a little tangent but don’t worry this isn’t my main point.

That is to say, if a women can only have sex with one man while
in her fertile period, it would decrease the probability of her
giving birth.

for example. A society of 30 men and 30 women, would see one or two
females ovulating per day but 4 or 5 men having gone without ejaculation
for 7 days. So optimal reproduction would mean each fertile women get’s
to be with around 2 men. 2 and a half men lol. one for each night of
ovulation, to give her the largest amount of semen they can.

Back to the main point.
So it would stand to reason that what a women is attracted to in a
man on nofap is THEIR fertility. Just has what a man is attracted to
in a women when she is ovulating is HERS.

SO it would stand to reason that we could create a practice to cultivate
maximum sperm production, just as we cultivate muscle mass, etc.

I wonder what else we can cultivate.

So it should be easy to see why a girl might be less into a guy who
approaches her for sex, but on a day when he is “empty”. I mean
obviously a guy can still be attractive and sex happens for reasons other
than procreation. However what if it’s that for ONS the vibe would be
more of a procreation vibe where as for a longer term thing the vibe
would be sex because you actually like the person.

Now a thought i was thinking that has nothing to do with sex.
Also the test I did for special ed that had me memorize disjointed
items and try to regurgitate them, I would say is not a true
test of learning ability. I mean, it is one form of learning.
However, to say not being as strong in it could be seen as an obstacle
is probably not a very good way to do it. Especially since most higher
level learning is based on systems thinking, the exact opposite of memorizing
disjointed facts.

Anyways, so it would be interesting to research ways to increase fertility
in males. I know testosterone is one way, but I feel like that is just one
factor and maybe not even a factor as apparently testosterone increases after
ejaculation. Well this COULD be as a way of starting up semen production
again. However, starting it up is not what is attractive to females. What
is attractive is having a lot of it and the signal that body language
and attitude convey when that is the case.

So I wonder if anything could increase semen volume without relying on
max testosterone, because you can only do so much where testosterone is
concerned. Unless I start taking supplements for testosterone, which I could
do actually but I feel like would be too much too soon.

I was going to save this for another post but I think it fits in better here so
here are some way’s I’ve thought of to increase sperm production based
on research etc:

Besides supplements for increasing testosterone which are many such as Maca, ashwanganda, etc,
Light therapy (get a lamp that gives 10000 lux light and sit infront of it. Or get lot’s of
sun light. These both help the body prudice FSH and LH which help produce testosterone
and sperm I think.

Next, “edging”, that is, getting yourself worked up through masterbation bu
not orgasming. This is so obvious because what happens when you do this too much? You
get blue balls which is basically balls too full with sperm. However, I notice I haven’t been
getting this lately, i only really got it hen making out with a girlfriend many years ago. However,
during that time I was horny everyday and was doing nofap, before nofap was even a thing.

Now, I’ll stop things here because this idea of edging leads to my next post which will
be on the contrat between the sexual state and the non-sexual state from a very philosophicaland I guess holistic perspective.

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