Si and imaginative memory

I checked out some deviant art pics, and saw some really cool fractal art and I tried imagining I was in the picture and realized, like when I was a kid, I can still do this to some degree. The result is an actual feeling, a feeling of being present physically, in that space.

I thought about how fractals could be more Ne depending on how novel the specific fractal was, but maybe the feelings of color, space, structure etc could be Si?

Well, I definitely want to pay more attention to both my imagination, and the imaginations of others. So the periods of relief from boredom maybe should have lot’s of music and art as their focus. (if I do a hermetic process of periods of boredom and then fun)

Being able to go into a picture like that, and enjoy it so deeply. It makes me wonder if maybe that is what people should be learning how to do more of, instead of trying to create the physical products. I just wonder, what would the results be, of focused imagining.

Another thing is that power of psychadelics as I hear it described seems to remind of of things that improve Si. Hallucinations, emotional centering, reduced depression that last well after the drug is taken, for example.

Also in terms of building an ISTJ like memory power, if even possible, being able to put oneself into the scene of a mnemonic story or image, meaning see the scene as if you are there, is probably the thing needed.

This allows a few things I can think of.

1. It means you get to immerse in something that is (hopefully) exciting and intriguing so that you are gaining experiences that you could not have without this imagining. Ne

2. Since you are sensing the scene, from inside your mind, I guess this means you are using Si? So is this kind of like a Ne-Si connection. Also is it like a substitute for dreaming.


Language Learning: Muscle Memory and Passive Auditory Imprinting

“Passive Auditory Imprinting” Is really just a name I’m giving for the idea Khatsumoto from gives the idea of learning things through “osmosis” or passive listening. Where for example, if you hear the same phrase over and over, even if you don’t actively pay attention to it, you will become familiar with that phrase. Another example is learning a song or the words to a commercial even if you aren’t trying to.

I call it passive Auditory imprinting, and I stress “imprinting” because to me that feels like the best way to describe what is happening, at least for the moment and because this idea of imprinting seems to have other ways of occurring that I want to discuss.

First though, the reason why I find this idea important. It is because I find learning things actively to require a lot of resources and therefore not efficient. I mean, the worst example of this is creating mnemonics, where you focus completely on this task for the period of time that you are creating them AND all the reviews of the mnemonics you create.

Why is this not efficient?

For some people I’m sure it is efficient. For me though, I find myself constantly thinking, “damn I have to make up stories and review and actively recall meanings and stories of words. I have to remember a lot of information actively. I have to spend this time doing this, when I could be thinking about so many other interesting things. That is what makes it a burden.

Working out isn’t a burden for me. Doing chores not really, a physical part time job not really, but sitting down to review information that I already know so I don’t forget it, running over the same pathways, consciously,almost as if I never even made them before. That sucks.

A bit better is learning by trying to make connections. It’s still very active but it can rely on context more than creativity.

I feel like remembering things is important. I really got thinking about these ideas because of this fact, being able to remember a lot of facts is important for success in most fields and at least for the moment, it is not practical to try to get around it, in the school system at least.

Language learning as well is another huge example of where memorizing facts can become the “make or break” point. Learning Chinese requires being able to read and write 3000+ unique symbols.

This brings me to my next idea. Because learning Hanzi through mnemonics and review of those mnemonics becomes mind numbing very fast for me, because in general, memorizing can have this same effect, I need a way to be able to do memorization without it being a burden. Without having to sacrifice my cognitive resources.

Now here is my solution, which is pretty much going against the new way of doing things. I want to learn Hanzi by rote. As I write them out 10 or so times each, I will not have to think about them nearly as much. I can think about anything, let my mind wander in and out of focus. As long as the strokes are right and as long as I somehow fit the meaning to them. Either by only learning sentences which would have built in context for far more Hanzi at once. Or even paragraphs of text, just writing the whole paragraph out, knowing what it’s about, until I’ve memorized it and can write it on command. Or just write the hanzi while saying the name each time. Simple things like that.

I’ll still learn them. Why because of another type of imprinting. Muscle memory imprinting. My muscles(and parts of my central nervous system) will learn the Hanzi. I will be able to access those parts either when I write, or by imagining writing the words, and eventually just because I’ll have used them enough.

Now here is an interesting question. Is writing in big letters, the same as hearing a song played at a louder volume, in terms of increasing your ability to remember it. Or does a song only need to be loud enough to be clear, and writing something you see, the same as seeing the symbols clearly.

So this brings me to a whole philosophy about learning. Should we be trying to force our learning(of boring material) into consciousness awareness? Or is it better left to other parts of the central nervous system to store, and then we process and internalize further as needed?

I’ll end this by saying it sees some thing we are passionate about “knowing and understanding require a foundation of memorizing things we feel are not interesting. This method is a way to memorize those less interesting things in a way that uses more kinesthetic resources instead of the deeper conscious cognitive processes we want to use for the fun stuff.

Can Controlled induction of depression and then treatment yeild super compensation?

Basically what I am asking is, can we train our emotional well-being like a muscle. Weakening it and then letting it recover and grow stronger? Here are my reasons for thinking this may be possible:

1. Have you ever been in a shitty amount of pain and then it was relieved suddenly and didn’t the relief feel better than your base line level of emotion?

2. I feel like after periods of inactivity, when I start jogging again my mood get’s amazing very fast, and it feels like it wouldn’t have been as good if I were just exercising all the time.

3. I feel like after periods of anxiety/depression, when I recover I retain all the techniques I used to get my through the harder times and all the knowledge I gained in my quest to improve my situation. Then after recovery I am left with an excess of emotional tools.

4. Just the fact that when the frontal lobe is compromised by something like a lingering weird mood, but you are forced to be creative from that state, you would be forced to become more efficient in the way you draw out you creativity it seems. Then when the mood lifts you are left with an abundance of tools to allow for creativity plus your brain becomes again efficient due to chemicals etc being brought back into balance.

I remember reading someone talking about using sleep deprivation and then making up for that sleep later, for a similar reason. That could work, maybe a bit differently though, and it seems like something armies already do to some extent although mostly to train for working in sleep deprived states instead of trying to actually improve the baseline.

Chasing new experiences: Because Recognition is Cheap

I’ll lay it out as plainly as possible. If I am to grow old, end up a 90 year old guy, I don’t think I’ll me be happy just being known for what I’ve done with my life. Like, when I think about it, being 90 years old, no sex appeal, not being awesome or anything like that, just being able to say what I WAS, is not enough. No one can give me enough recognition of admiration to satisfy me. Not even now actually. I mean, in times when I didn’t know what I had to offer and cared, it helped to be able to see where my contributions are most valued. However, contribution can be made just be accident, just by doing what you love. Maybe not everyone is the same. I don’t want my goals to be based on leaving my mark on the world, or making a name for myself. I want something that will always be amazing. That thing is the universe, not just the ever changing opinion some people have of me.

Lately I’ve been thinking, what am I actually going to do with my life. Am I going to do something big? When will I get my chance? When will be my time to “shine”. In the meantime I get to just be “normal” life a normal boring life? Then I get to shine for a few years maybe and then back to being boring when I get older but I’ll always have people remembering how cool I was “at one point”?

I have another idea. Forget about “shining” and instead focus on actually experiencing.
Now, yes some travel, and main stream things like that could be cool with good friends. However, I will always be searching for something more. I don’t know if it’s that I want to be the first to discover something. It’s more that I want to discover and do things that actually push me on a spiritual and intellectual level. I don’t mean discovering something that will help science even, although that could happen. I mean I want to discover this universe, and live an amazing story.

And not even to tell. Maybe just to hint and maybe to write in a journal for people close to me to share in. I just feel like sharing my stories my adventures for someone else’s entertainment, would cheapen it. It’s weird because on the one hand the way the media works is pics or it didn’t happen. I almost get this feeling like, if I don’t share this awesome thing that happened, it would be as if it didn’t actually happen. When I do share it though, it’s like it get’s cheapened because people give a shit to varying degrees. If I tell my story it becomes something I achieved, where as if I don’t tell it it remains something I experienced.

I guess it’s like my focus shifts and then I decide I want to share, for the recognition, but after this it’s harder to go back to seeing it as just an experience. I think I need to look at when my focus shifts. It could be that around the wrong people I feel lonely and the only way to feel connected is to share achievements. It could be that I don’t have enough people to just share these things with as experiences, maybe because to many are focused on experiences being achievements. I realize though that the best you you can be will be based on going in the direction of love, not achievement. For example, working out for mood vs for looks.

It seems for me, learning more about what life is, is the overall thing about experience that I want to have. I do feel like a lot of older people talk about how they have so much life experience and how they know more about what life is and it sounds so elitist. I don’t want to become a master or a PHD in what life is, I never what there to be an end to what life is that I can say I know it all. I want to learn more and feel more connection to it. I feel like the people who do feel like they have to have some authority on things, make themselves hard to share these experiences with, that these people as well as the people who will see me as an authority instead of just someone to share with, these are the people I will avoid sharing with. When people share stuff with me, I don’t turn my nose up at them, I’m happy that they have discovered this thing. Not happy as in I’m judging their progress through life. I’m happy because it’s a sign to me that the universe is getting better in general and that now I can share in the joy of that discovery with someone who understands. I assume everyone knows what they are doing already, and so I just enjoy people I can connect with. There are no levels with me. I don’t focus on what other people have or don’t have as people, and people who focus on that in me, obviously there will be a disconnect there.

Recognition feels good sometimes. Like if I do something I’m proud of and other people, especially people I respect and am close to, recognize the achievement. However, it feels like there is recognition where someone shares in your achievement of something maybe admiring you a bit or learning from you, and then there is recognition where someone just admires you or admires your achievement only. Not really sharing in your joy. Admiration is tricky in general and part of me feels I should avoid it.

New Focus: Connection:Through art exploration and through conflict engagment

I think I can tie in a lot of ideas into this new focus actually.

I realize there are a lot of goals I’ve had only for the feeling of being admired or otherwise looked upon strongly by others instead of what I want. Recently though I’ve been teasing a lot of that out and so I’ve come to a place where I know a lot about what I don’t want to do. I don’t even want to do art or music if it’s just going to be for the sake of fame or otherwise being seen as valuable to others and not for me. I don’t want to ever have to be anxious about needing to keep up with something to keep up my image ect without being inspired.

What I want is to be inspired. To find things I love so that I can follow them no matter how many people look down on it. I watched Teal Swan and she talked as well about the importance of inspiration. However, she said things like people might need to try stuff out to find out what they like. This could work, but for me it seems I don’t often get inspired after trying things out. I often am inspired by the idea of something, and then I try it out. It seems like to try something out to see if inspiration will hit, would be almost the same as working at something I don’t enjoy hoping I’ll enjoy it afterwards. I feel a lot of my inspiration comes from art and from music and from people I connect with. So I watched some super hero stuff and some video game theorist stuff.

Then I started thinking deeply about art and the shared consciousness. Basically going on how I want to feel in my daily life. I want to feel awe and intrigue and I feel these things most often from art and music ect, as well as dreams and different states of consciousness. When I think to them I feel like those are experiences with working for, just for their own sake. However, that isn’t inspiration to create them, it’s more an inspiration to seek them out and experience the. The inspiration may come from wanting to create some of my own. I have had this inspiration for it’s own sake. I remember this, especially when I was younger. It was taking a piece of art or music and I guess changing it somehow to make it more powerful for me. Now, that might have evolved into me writing or creating my own music, but maybe the idea of “not copying other people” forced me to want to do my own work to early, and more importantly for the wrong reason. To prove myself.

So I want to try again just seeking out art and music to experience it, and if I get inspiration I’ll just go with it. Otherwise I’ll at least feel like I’m on the right track.

The other thing this ties in with is the feeling I had when I was sick last night. The feeling of what if I were to die, and realizing how lonely death seemed at that moment. Realizing how important human connection was to me. Made me want to focus maybe my whole life, on helping people connect. Whether with me or with each other iunno. Just that I felt it’s something that should be done. So it’s cool that this idea of the shared consciousness is about connection with others, as well as with the universe and creation.

Also you know how they say film/tv/stories are a form of catharsis. So I wonder why I mostly find stories with a lot of showdown type fights to be cathartic. I feel like it’s because there is so much conflict in general in interpersonal interaction. Most people ignore or avoid it. Me included. However, in avoiding it I seem to never quite get rid of it. These are strangers as well as friends, intentional and often unintentional conflict. I feel though that in trying to avoid other people and their feelings about me and themselves, and how they feel people should be treated, I just leave things untended to. I feel like these stories therefore are cathartic not because I should become a super hero as I thought for so long, but because I should meet these conflicts head on with a positive open attitude. In some ways it feels like other people are at once the slave and the master of me, but if I engage maybe create something better.

Art/Video games & The Shared Consiousness

So my idea is that we may be able to sense when a piece of art is based on many other things from other people. Either in an obvious way like you see trading cards with different artists for each card. Or in a less obvious way like the material just seems extremely rich and wide to be all the workings of one person (not that this isn’t possible). Or you just feel you recognize some of the elements from something else and you aren’t sure where. Or iunno.

So it seems possible that the more influences an artist uses in their works the richer it will be, and not just in creativity and intrigue but also in that it will be more educational of the share consciousness, By that I mean, the experiences and knowledge of all the human beings based simply on the art created by people who were connected to other people ect, that lived on/evolved from the start until where we are now.

I feel like the shared consciousness may hold certain keys that we just don’t know how to interpret yet but find interesting because maybe we know there is something to be interpreted. I think it wouldn’t be to far off to say art holds data human evolution and that just as past and present data on other things can be used to predict the future, I feel the same can be said for data of art. I feel like this art may be something that things like the bible are a part of but not the full story. Like there are things to learn about our paths and possibly purpose and door ways to other places ect. Iunno, I think it’s important to keep an open mind. It just seems like we sometimes create art not knowing exactly what we are making but later realize it is actually relevant.

On doorways: When I think about the possibility of other worlds and portals and such, it doesn’t really seem THAT interesting. I feel like an altered state of consciousness would be more interesting. So like, not only seeing different things, but maybe more importantly feeling different emotions than I am accustom to. I mean, it is reaching deeper into the consciousness of the universe and being able to process it. I feel in a way like that may be one of the ultimate experiences. Being more connected to not just the daily life, but things that are for the most part undiscovered. Connected because they can be found from within, as experiences of the body as it is connected to creation.

So I guess art kind of gives that feeling a bit. It’s like an extroverted version of that. It’s like after someone experiences something like that, either a dream or drugs, or just neuro-chemical change, and then they turn it into art and we get to integrate that aspect of the human psyche.

I feel like it could be that many secrets of the universe lie in the human psyche, and that in some areas peoples psyche will be connected because if we go back far enough we are all related and so we can experience more of the shared consciousness of our psych through other peoples expressions of it. This leads to another question. How do humans differ artistically based on genetic history/diversity/ect.

After writing this I searched “new art forms” in youtube and I got

and soon after this as a self-Evolving Art Form 3.3.1 (part 2)” which describes a lot of what I described. I only searched new art forms, because I was thinking tv used to show all these obscure things when it was younger, then video games when it was younger. As these art forms became mrore popular with more money making potential, the obscure and often more intriguing stuff got the boot. So I was thinking, I should find the new art forms to find the new art that is more representative of the shared consciousness.

Also, have you ever saw or heard something, probably art or music, and felt a really strong connection to it and like you’ve heard or saw it before. Kinda like de ja vu except it feels deeper, like the art is a part of you already in some way?


Acting as Teaching

In an earlier post that can be found under memory, I talk about the way symbols and allegory can become meaningful in that they make strong connections in the brain which create long lasting memories. I find this idea intriging and have thought about using it actually to develop a new style where things I wear symbolize something. I have already been using metaphor I realize, in my signature as well as with my style although in part of my style the meaning came afterwards. For instance my dreadlocks now mean: People being stronger together than separate, letting things happen organically, growth, and possibly other things too.

So I’ve also wrote about how maybe I wanted to do acting since so many forms of expression can fall under it. Thinking about it even more today I realize it was one of the major forms of expression that has always been with me since  was very small. It wasn’t just being funny, it was acting funny, and acting in general. It was taking on the expressions of other humans and sometimes I think the feelings behind them as well. btw, I think even writing like script writing, is a form of actin too, I mean the words a persons chooses is part of how they act. For the same reason, language can be acting too.

So what have I found today?:

Core processes
Phil Jones has written in his book Drama as Therapy, Theatre as Living that there are nine core processes at the heart of drama therapy. These include projective identification and dramatic distancing. Projective identification is the process whereby a person feels the feelings that the other is unable to access themselves. Dramatic distancing refers to the way that emotional and psychological problems can be accessed easier through metaphor. The client has a distanced relationship through metaphor to these problems that makes them easier to tolerate.”

So, connections between my field of study(psychology), an innate form of expression(acting), “metaphor”(which is related to allegory and symbolism), my interest in people, and also “The connection between drama and the psychological healing of society, though not of the individual, was first formally acknowledged by Aristotle, who was the originator of the term ‘catharsis’.” So like, being able to act out the feelings a human would feel in a situation is a good way of teaching compassion for that person, to others. In my experience, I find it way easier to empathize with another person if I have bee through what they are going through or if I can connect their experience to a fictional character even, who I was shown the emotions of in a more raw form.

So I don’t know. If I wanna chase a low state I think programming is more challenging and maybe more conducive to that. However, it doesn’t feel like me as much. Not sure if acting would depend on the characters I act as, but it seems like a natural tendency I’ve had. In fact contrary to what Aristotle said, I have found that when I’m sad or lonely, I often choose to act out those feelings in a way and observe them almost as if from the outside and then feel compassion for myself as if I were someone else. In this way I don’t just stew in my own problems as much,They are processed as if they were someone Else’s. it is kind of like mindfulness in a way. Maybe the trick with that is that I act as if someone else could be watching, or maybe I act as if I am acting, so more expressive and in a way that if I were an audience I would be moved by what I saw. Yeah that explains it. So it seems like something worth doing, maybe I just want to act my own ideas out, express characters that people don’t get yet, or something. Maybe that would be more meaningful then trying to get good at someone else’s characters. Iunno.

The power of “Story” on hormones, happiness, love

My comment to this article:

Interesting! Reminds me of the concept that a certain type of happiness that has to be built up over time through positive life experiences(So I am assuming these experiences need to be remembered). Also there is the relationships between memory and depression, meaning increase serotonin = better memory + less depression.  It stands to reason that positive memories would also increase base serotonin rate and increase happiness and that positive memories related to a brand are made strong because branding creates a web in memorize tying together multiple things related to that brand with the brand as a symbol. As this symbolism and inter connectivity increases memory power, if the memory is positive, then it would increase happiness.

It’s funny because many people say that happiness is in the present. That if you want to be happy you need to stop focusing on material things, on the past/future. However if memory is strongly linked to hormone levels, and material possessions(or brands, since some brands are not based on physical products) then it seems the past may be more important to happiness. As well this is inline with the idea that goals that are harder to achieve, take time ect, are more meaningful when achieved. So maybe the past is actually more important to happiness EXCEPT for times when a person practices mindfulness, as people who had troubled pasts can basically wipe their emotional slate clean with mindfulness practice.

When to do HIIT Sprints :Time of the day and the sine-wave of aging

Probably my earliest experience with HIIT sprints was in junior high and I experimented with doing them first thing in the morning before breakfast. The problem was after I would finish, I would go to school feeling very tired. I think it was about lack of sleep as when your a teenager you need more and even for my age now it still wouldn’t have been enough.

Later on I started doing them closer to the evening. Recently my problem was when I would do them closer to the evening I would end up still going to sleep later than I should if there was nothing pressing I needed to do. This could be because metabolism stays elevated after cardiovascular exercise in general and especially for HIIT were the body may spend up to 48 hours replenishing lost energy though increase oxygen consumption and usage after exercise.

Then when I’d go to bed too late, I would wake up feeling drained instead of refreshed and so It would take me longer to work out again.

What I realize now is that it only makes sense to do HIIT in the morning. At least for me right now. So that I give my body the whole of the day to recover what it can and then the night and the next day. In a way it’s like, doing a workout in the morning is like doing it earlier in my life so that I get to the next workout sooner in my life lol. Iunno, Obviously that isn’t necessarily so as if it is the evening and I can do a workout but instead I wait till the next day, it’s later in life. It’s just, maybe the body doesn’t see life like that.

The body doesn’t age in a linear fashion. It ages as the day goes by, and reverts back to youth as it sleeps and even during periods of relaxation during the day. So age for the body is more of a sine-wave on a diagonal where the top left is birth and the bottom right is death and the upper-wards going side is sleep and rest and the downwards facing side is wakefulness and work. So to work out in the morning is to work out when I’m younger and have more time to recover where as to work out in the evening is to work out when I’m older and have less time to recover, within one cycle of a wave. One cycle where the next cycle will start slightly lower.

Beyond the physical advantages of workout in the morning, I find with the increase in metabolism, life seems to move by not as fast. It’s like I am more connected and able to experience things and probably more able to form memories as well. This is so important if you think about it because mortality is relative to what we think is a long time and if we feel life is passing by to quickly then even if we life to 100 it won’t feel like enough. I feel this slowing down of time is as much a function of emotional health as cognitive enhancement. Increased serotonin helps in building stronger memories and memory how we measure how long we have lived. As well serotonin is often found low in depressed people and these people find it hard to remember positive experiences.

Well anyway, people act like exercise is just something we do so we don’t die so fast but it’s far more than that.

Memory and Meaning: Examples: Allegory, Architecture, Music

Introduction, wondering…

I wonder if there is a connection between things that feel meaningful, and things which act very strongly on memory. Now I don’t just mean like, *Got attacked on the street, will never look at street the same way* kind of meaningful, I mean just like *wake up early and the sun hits the window in a certain day and you feel so at piece you’ll never forget that moment* kind of meaningful. See I think meaning, is not dependent on emotional intensity, but on memory strength. Yes, emotional intensity increases strength of memories, but that is not the only way.


When you walk into someone else’s home and you realize you are in someone else’s head space and it is so intimate, that it meaningful, and without causing heart palpitations. See what I realized is that it is the sum of two things. The fact that it is an intimate and therefore social experience, and also the fact that architecture is so linked to memory that there are mnemonic techniques based on visualizing palaces and placing an object to be remembered, in each room. The reason basic idea is that architecture visualization and spacial recognition and path tracing through architecture (and possible outdoor locations too) require the use o spacial memory(or something) and this is a very strong form of memory because it requires so much processing power.

Anyways, to make a long story short, architecture is memorable and therefore meaningful? or is it more about the intimacy, or a mix of both. Either way, I can remember what a persons house looks like, the general lay out, after only seeing it once, and that being a few years ago.


Allegory  think for the same reason, really speaks to the soul. You read a fantastic piece of literature, and think wow that was amazing. Then later you realize all the allegory, all the hidden meanings. After that, that story and many of the meanings will be deeply entrenched in you memory and the story will be, well, more meaningful.


Another example for the link between memory and meaning would be the way music and the memories tied to it persist in people with Alzheimer’s beyond things like even remembering who their family members are.

Far Fetched Serotonin Increase?:

So when I think people are searching for meaning, well at least for me, I might really be searching for experiences and concepts that have such a powerful effect on my memory that I can’t forget them. On top of that, I’ll throw out there that one common symptom of depression is memory problems which seem to be linked to low serotonin. So it may be that experiencing or learning unforgettable things, increases serotonin. If this is true, I wonder how long lasting the effect is. Also it says that being smarter = being happier, just by having more memories, more worth remembering. Think about it, when you are asked what makes life worth living, you will most likely think back on memories, as well as things you have yet to achieve. Of course, you have to remember your goals for the future, and therefore those goals must be meaningful in order for them to be memories.


So these are some thoughts I’ve had. Some of them require some supposing so they may not pan out. For instance, I know that increasing serotonin increases memory if serotonin is low. Best thing in the way of optimal serotonin I can think of is vitamin D, at least in the winter when there is less light. My memory shot up after starting on it. However, I do no know if improving memory will somehow boost serotonin, only that the meaningful experiences that build strong memories, feel really good!

What I might look into is increases memory power through advanced use of allegory and architecture visualization.



I found this link on using allegory to teach and learn math:



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